i’ve never been a person to really discuss my feelings.. yes, if i’m close to you i do tell why i dislike a person and sorts like that… but i’ve nvr been one to discuss feelings that are associated with me… i’ve always felt vulnerable for feeling the way i do… and sometimes i want so badly to tell my close friends how i’m feeling so that they can make it all better… they may not take the pain away but they can take my thoughts of the pain… but i can’t… i’m trying to at least.. i make the effort with some people… of course to them, i’m keeping too much stuff awya from them, hiding my feelings… they feel that they tell me more than i ever tell them… but what they don’t understand is that i’m trying my very best… i can’t just do it all in one day… i can’t change like that… i need time… i need space.. don’t push me… but i guess it’s kinda unfair to them as well… so what do u get when that happens and they get fed up of asking you what’s wrong all the time? they either push you away or they walk out… and the worse part… they were the ones you told most to… so now that they’ve walked out… who are you to talk to? you’ve got to start all over again… and it makes it so much worse because now u’ve been hurt by the ones you trust most.. it’s never easy to trust again… to let yourself be vulnerable again…
i’m trying. give me time.
help me. i’m in pain.
dani
not everyone is able to vocalise what they truly feel. it take a lot for some people to open up and finding the right person who you can trust is not easy. it might seem unfair that people tell you things but you don’t tell them just as much but don’t feel pressured to tell people things that you are not prepared to tell. move at your own pace. those who care will have to understand
Comment by u-jean — November 30, 2006 @ 2:50 am