Bad Boys VS Geeks

the last entry was harsh and unnecessary. to the people who i’ve hurt unintentionally through that entry… i’m sorry. i got carried away.

dani

well, i have kind of been neglecting bbvsg lately… so sorry… been kind of busy here and there…

anyways, i’m not in a really good mood.. well, i’m a college student and i’m human, therefore i am permitted to lash out every once in a while right??

anyways, imagine yourself in a position where someone hurt you really bad.. ok? they befriend you and then they leave you and then somewhere down the road they become your friend again. and when they do that, they pretend nothing has happened over the weeks and months that we don’t talk or stay in contact. got the gist of the situation? ok, now tell me, the friend is still a friend right? would you forgive the friend for what he/she has done to you? would you try and look past their mistakes and see them for who they are; a person capable of making mistakes??

i remember once someone telling me that expectations aren’t good… they make a relationship complicated… so aren’t friends the ones you normally can be yourself with and not be judged by a certain standard? without expectations, without having to prove yourself again and again? having to explain yourself and your actions again and again…? it gets tiring doesn’t it?

i mean i have my faults, what i’m trying to see are that others have their faults too.. but it’s no reason not to look past their faults and forgive them… i’m not perfect, i don’t expect others to be… so when someone does something to hurt you, no matter how bad… shouldn’t one try and get past it and just let the past be what it is meant to be, the past?

everyone at the end of the day has hurt me at least once. so does that mean that everytime they hurt me i express it to the world and them? sometimes some things can be gotten over silently… so you don’t have to tell the person they hurt you or anything along those lines… i mean some thoughts and feelings should be kept to oneself, no? i mean simply to avoid complications and some painful confrontations…

so basically that’s how i see things.. but if i’ve hurt you or made you angry at any point, whoever you are… you can tell me.. straight to my face… not behind my back.. and no matter how much i hate it i will deal with it and try to improve… don’t go bitching behind my back or BLOGGING about it thinking i won’t find out… i’m not as ignorant as any of you would like to believe..

so if you think only my new friends are the ones i silently forgive… you have no idea how wrong you are. the fact that you can even think that is insulting to me.. expectations get you no where. that’s what i learnt from my friendships. so quit it. i’m human.

THANKS

dani